The Invoice of Survival
More often than not, we treat resilience as a trophy to be displayed and rarely discuss the invoice that follows. To survive certain chapters in life is to borrow from your future self; it is a high-interest loan of adrenaline, composure, and most importantly, hope. There is a recursive exhaustion in how we lean on our future selves: a loop where we borrow hope from an identity that has not yet been substantiated . You rely on the hope of becoming to fuel the act of becoming. Hope is a great thing, but does that mean we exploit it to a point where it becomes a predatory internal economy? We rarely acknowledge how draining it is to anchor our entire existence to a projection that itself stands upon nothing but speculative air. How can one consistently draw sustenance from a foundation that is itself a contingent mirage? And when this crisis recedes, the world expects a bounce back, but sometimes all you can do is stand there, lifeless, staring at the wreckage. The tragedy of sur...